As far back as 2012, I recall wanting to become a dad and give my children a different experience than what I had. This deep-seated desire, though seemingly noble, drove me to rush the process and get into toxic relationships with the hopes of starting a family.

The path to fatherhood started in Toronto, Canada. After breaking off another toxic engagement, I came back to Tulsa, Oklahoma, where I began to reevaluate my choices in women. Elohim quickly revealed that there was a pattern, and I was the common factor. It was a disturbing revelation. A revelation that I was getting with women who were versions of my dad, who was verbally and physically abusive. It’s this crazy thing, when someone is so hurt and damaged that they believe that the abuse they feel is normal, or it’s love, and they are unworthy of being loved. Even though there’s so much inner chaos and unfulfillment in these relationships, it was the only home I knew. It was a lying comfort zone.

I grew up fatherless. Until the age of 12, that is. Before that, my dad peeped in and out of my life like a stranger. After my grandmother died in 1997, I had to move with my dad because my grandfather was not equipped to watch after me. For the next 7 years, I experienced physical and mental abuse that was directly aimed at my worth. The pain of the abuse is what led me to start writing after a friend suggested I write my thoughts down in a journal. Those journal entries turned into poetry, then spoken word, then scripts. So it’s safe to say that Elohim used my hurt and pain to drive me to my gift.

Ok, back to the story. Right after this groundbreaking intel, I moved to Los Angeles for a new start in my film directing career and to pursue my purpose.

The revelation about my choices in women led me to write an open letter to my father called Dear Dad. The experience of writing it was the first authentic attempt to confront the deep-seated pain that was connected to my relationship with my dad. I was never able to get ‘closure’ in the sense of him saying sorry for what happened. Writing the letter, though, was a major step in healing. It was terrifying, but Elohim spoke to my heart, saying that it was a necessary step, and if I didn’t write and share, I wouldn’t grow any further. So I did, and it was a blessing for me and others. That letter opened the door to write my first book, entitled The Wilderness. Why is this important? Right after sharing the open letter and completing an Elohim-given step in growth as a man, I was introduced to my wife at a Bible study in Los Angeles! However, initially, I didn’t know she was my wife, and it would take over two years before it was revealed!

THE PROPHECY

Fast forward, Danielle and I were married on February 28, 2021, and were blessed to welcome Zakar (12/24/21) and Yaharak (4/30/24) to our lives soon after. Due to many factors, like hospital discrimination and Black maternal mortality statistics, both of our sons were born at home, and I delivered them with the help of Elohim.

When it comes to our boys, we believe, according to the Scriptures, that those who are the descendants of Abraham and are males must be circumcised. Circumcision is a sign in flesh that Yahuah Elohim is our Elohim, and it is a shadow of the circumcision of the heart, the promise of His spirit to change our ways, to have a mind to obey Him. The commandment was first given to patriarch Abraham, then to all his descendants.

With that being said, Zakar Amat was circumcised by a Black physician in Los Angeles.

THE CIRCUMCISION

On June 23, 2024, I decided to circumcise my second son. I did so because the physician’s prices had risen, and we did not have access to funds to get another doctor. Moreover, the insurance would not cover the cost. Not knowing it at the time, but this was all ordained for Elohim. Yahuah had taken all our options away. You may not know what this is like, but it’s happened before in my life. On top of this, the word of Yahuah came to me, and the fear of Elohim rested upon me. According to Genesis 17:14, “and an uncircumcised male child, who is not circumcised in the flesh of his foreskin, his life shall be cut off from his people — he has broken My covenant.”

This word shook me to my core.

Upon researching circumcision, I found that a 2011 California law gave parents the right to have their son circumcised. I then studied the practice through a training module conducted by a urologist. We purchased a medical-grade professional circumcision kit and numbing cream to numb the area.

THE ER

He was circumcised on June 23, 2024, but there was a complication. The complication was when one is circumcised, a skin adhesion remains. This can happen with experienced circumcisers. This remaining thin layer of inner skin caused bleeding, so we took him to the hospital. Before that time, we were not keen on the ER and hospital because of the discrimination we had heard about towards Black people. Once at the ER, they stopped the bleeding immediately.

THE NIGHTMARE BEGINS

We were transferred from the ER to a children’s hospital, and were immediately confronted by a kidnapping machine we had no idea existed. Urology said that there was no urologic intervention needed at that time, only to finish the circumcision in 6 months to fix the situation. He recommended that we be discharged and that Yaharak be given antibiotics. I was relieved, but had no idea what was about to happen next. This is where our nightmare began.

From the beginning, discrimination and confirmation bias were on the social workers’ lips, and many others we would encounter. The social worker began to say things like “we neglected him,” making comments like “were we trying to flee the country?” As though we committed a terrorist act. Having to mention things like the home birth, not putting the children through the traditional “hospital”, no vaccines, and things of such. All red flags for the one looking for them.

ABUSE TESTING

On the early morning of June 24, 2024, at this children’s hospital, a Non-Accidental Trauma workup began. In other words, this is when a mandatory reporter contacts CFS, and the hospital conducts multiple tests, “looking for child abuse”. So we thought. They were looking for anything to confirm their inherent “abuse” bias and discrimination. From taking photos of baby scratches to hyping up the slightest cry. We would have to endure a week of unnecessary testing, and we could not decline. In addition, there were painful and harmful tests conducted on Yaharak, causing infliction, which the hospital staff dismissed and hid. Originally, we were led to believe the transfer was for the urology observation. However, someone at the ER called Children and Family Services, which initiated the transfer to an infamous children’s hospital.

THE LIE

During the child abuse workup, all tests came back negative, except for one. They found an anomaly on Yaharak’s femur. The child abuse pediatrician began to sell us a lie, saying that it was an injury caused by violent force, by twisting and hyperextending the knee. This had not occurred, never, and we began to confront her about the lie. After she stated it another time to me, I said that no such thing happened to our two-month-old, and “what else could it be?”. She then took out her phone and looked at the computer as if she were going to type in Google, but she never answered me. She tried to make it like “well maybe someone else did it,” but I said he’s never been out of our sight. This child abuse pediatrician could never look me straight in my eyes. She had already made up her mind from the first time she saw us. Why do an abuse workup if you already think the parents have abused their child? They only needed something they could spin. They began to say and repeat that Yaharak had a “fracture”.

Eventually, law enforcement got involved. They said they didn’t have an issue because it wasn’t illegal to circumcise our child.

During the week of the abuse testing on Yaharak, Yahuah led my wife to a case study of an infant who had the same bone anomaly. It was not a fracture at all, but just the formation of bone mineralization. We asked about it being something that he was born with, as he was only two months old, but it was shot down as the child abuse pediatrician continued to say, “It’s definitely a fracture.” Basically, because of their inherent biases and discrimination, they didn’t do their homework, and gave a misdiagnosis; excuse me, a lie. They made up a lie, repeating it over and over again, to become a fact. It’s false witnessing. It became clear that they wanted to persecute us out of malice because of the circumcision. It was also clear that they wanted to persecute us for being poor and Black, but still loving our children and being involved parents, asking questions, and saying no.

THE WOLF IN THE WHITE COAT

What happened on June 27, 2024, was a diabolical episode of The Twilight Zone. Earlier that week, I overheard a conversation that the pediatrician didn’t know I heard. While outside the room, the child abuse pediatrician and CFS social worker talked, and the doctor admitted that the bone abnormality could be a congenital condition or something from birth. Right after that, the CFS social worker said to us that they didn’t know what it was. This is part of the plot twist, because the whole time we’ve been at the hospital, the child abuse pediatrician was saying “it was a fracture, caused by the violent twisting of the leg, or hyperextension”. They also tried to theorize that while we did the circumcision, Danielle put so much pressure on Yaharak’s leg that it fractured. The thing is, looking at the X-ray, there was no sign of internal bleeding in the bone, which is what happens with a fracture. He had no bruising or swelling. They used that lie because Danielle confessed that she gently held Yaharak’s leg down, by the feet, so he wouldn’t throw his legs up. Danielle put little to no pressure on Yaharak’s legs, and their theory was just another set of lies to cover up their bias.

On June 27, we were discharged, and on the discharge papers, under diagnosis, it said that it was “concerning for a corner metaphyseal fracture.”. It read as if it was indeed determined, but it had not been. Furious, I confronted the child abuse pediatrician. I asked her why she has been lying to us, and that I heard her say that she said herself that she didn’t know, yet the whole time she was telling us we violently twisted his knee and hyperextended it. I told her that she and the whole medical team would be liable for this mistake if it wasn’t corrected. She put the “findings” on the radiologist. I told her that I would expose her and would come after her job. She then responded, “What do you want me to do then?” I then said, “Go change this paper and reflect on the diagnosis that you all do not know what this anomaly is.” She then left and gave us new discharge papers that had a diagnosis that they have to do a follow-up to see if it is a corner metaphyseal fracture or a congenital birth abnormality.

Upon being discharged, the CFS social worker was calling and texting us to see if they had found out if it was a fracture, and if so, when it happened. She said she needed the information for her records. However, what was going on was a setup. Certain things need to be in place for CFS to kidnap children.

FEELING UNEASY

After arriving at home with the children, I had a feeling that something was happening and they were planning something. One of the main reasons for this was that the CFS social worker kept wanting us to talk to set up a “safety plan”. We responded that we would consult with our lawyer because we felt like our rights were being violated. She would never respond.

On top of this, our son Zakar had been really rebellious during this time. During one night at the hospital, he was throwing a tantrum, like I had never seen before. I remember disciplining him, and right after, on his own accord, my 2-year-old said he was sorry, and hugged me. It was the first time I saw that he wanted to do the right thing, but the sin in his flesh was driving him to rebel. He needed his heart to be circumcised.

The night we were discharged, Zakar was acting up again. I was exhausted, not just in the general sense, but as a father. Zakar was not, and had never been, a bad child. He was pretty much obedient; however, over the last few months in this two-year-old stage, it was like rebellion just came out of nowhere. It was at an all-time high, I mean it was scary, because he would go to a space that no talk, reasoning, or discipline would stop it. We literally would have to leave him to it.  That night, I said to Zakar, “I’m giving you to Yahuah, he will have to discipline you, it’s nothing more I can do”. It was a prophecy that I didn’t even know was one.

THE KIDNAPPING

The very next morning was by far the toughest of our lives, and one I will remember forever. The sheriff showed up with a warrant to illegally kidnap our two-year-old Zakar and two-month-old Yaharak. This is what the uneasy feeling was, and the unknown prophecy.

I asked this same CFS social worker, the one who told me that they did not know what the abnormality was, what the allegations were. She said because of the incision (would not call it circumcision) and because of the “fracture.” I said it had not been diagnosed as a fracture; she said, “It’s definitely a fracture.” It was a false witness and the first act of perjury in court. I later found out that the reason why she lied about the bone being a “fracture” was to push the “threat level” to imminent danger, which allows the judge to sign off on a warrant. So disgusting.

The day they took them, I remember laughter in the hallway from the social workers. I remember the sound of the zipper while packing a bag for my son. I had to fasten his seatbelt to go with these wicked women to a place I wasn’t sure of. After strapping them in, I let Zakar know that they would reap what they sowed.

There were so many emotions. First was this unspeakable numbness. Followed by confusion. The confusion was partly because, though I trusted my life was in the hands of my Master Yahusha, the Messiah, I wondered what I did. Was this the right way to go? Had He forsaken me?

A few days later, I remember seeing Zakar and him looking at me as though I had deserted him. I can’t put into words what that feels like as a father. I was crushed. He felt like I had deserted him, and didn’t trust me. There was no playbook for this. Though I was a praying man, I was frozen in disappointment and hurt. I was hopeful that the matter would be resolved quickly, but boy was I naive.

THE CARTEL

I was so numb, it was a while before I shed my first tear. I felt bad that I couldn’t cry. I was in so much shock. My mind was stuck on June 28, 2024, when they kidnapped our boys. One day, I went on a walk, and was talking to my heavenly Abba (Father) Yahuah. I was asking Him what He sees, does this even hurt Him, and how does He feel about it. Not long after, a parable came to my mind.

The Devil was stealing children from parents, and putting them in this storehouse to create trauma within them, and use them in his army.

I started bawling, and it’s like the tears kept coming. Yahuah was expressing to my heart that He was hurt, and He was hurt that not many cared enough to fight. It started to make sense, just a little. The enemy was using trusted figures, stealing innocent children, and destroying families under the guise of care. It was the ones who said they were there to help. No one would expect them to be the real abusers and monsters. I had no idea it involved not only doctors and CPS workers, but judges, lawyers, bailiffs, and police. A highly organized cartel illegally kidnaps children while getting paid for it. Medical kidnapping is an epidemic around the world. The CPS system is a pipeline to the prison industrial complex, sex trafficking, and much more. Parents are falsely accused of child abuse, as the accusers destroy families and capitalize on the child. It is a Satanic agenda.

THE COURT

The truth doesn’t matter to them. Only what they can lie about and theorize. I didn’t know in the beginning, but they will twist every single word to apply it to their agenda. Their agenda is to punish and destroy parents, creating trauma within children. At the beginning, I thought, “ok, let’s straighten this out”, going into all the details of events, thinking that they wanted to know. What I found out is that it didn’t matter what you said, they had one agenda, and needed to use whatever you said against you.

From June 2024 to June 2025, I went through two public defenders who removed themselves. My wife went through one lawyer who removed herself. Why? Their whole agenda is to get parents to “agree” with the allegations that are lies. It’s coercion. Like in criminal court, most cases end in a plea and never go to trial. They used tactics of intimidation, blocking evidence from our well-respected expert witness. A witness who was the founder and former director of the child abuse department at the same hospital where we were accused! These lawyers have tried to coerce us to agree with their false witness that we are child abusers. This is what they have done to thousands of parents.

One of my attorneys gave our expert the wrong dates to have his report ready by. We were blessed to get in contact with him beforehand to make sure he had the right date. The lawyer was trying to sabotage the case. Our expert report was finished on the night of February 5, 2025, and the report exposes their allegations in great detail. The morning of the 6th, excited, I spoke with the lawyer who, after reading the 65-page report, still wanted to argue with me to “agree” with the lies, saying, “I have to talk to him (expert) about his report.” We were supposed to set the date for the trial that day. It took all the strength in me not to snap. I responded, “If you are trying to discriminate against me, I will contact the bar.” She then went to the judge and said, “We have a conflict.”. Then they gave me a male clone of her, who began to, not even reading the case, talk about agreeing to the allegations!

The whole dependency court, from the lawyers, judges, court reporters, and other officials, is trafficking children in what I like to call the Kidnapping Cartel. There is so much more to this, but I don’t have the room to share now.

It gets even more juicy.

THE TRIAL

I don’t know how many times I had to repeat that I would not take any deal. I would not agree with a false witness. I thank Yahuah for giving me the courage to say no, over and over again. It began to feel very spiritual and demonic. Using our children as bait, saying we’ll give them to you if you agree with us. They were trying to turn us against Yahusha the Messiah, to deny Him before men. Thanks be to Yahuah, He delivered us from all their traps!

Throughout the process, I learned that if you get a public defender, you will be part of a circus in which you are the main attraction. After a whole year, a trial was finally set. So we thought. Let me paint the picture. CPS originally said that they wanted to terminate our rights as parents for the circumcision and the fracture (which wasn’t a fracture). After our expert, that only Yahuah could give us, exposed them, they began to offer “deals”. As we got closer to the trial, my lawyer said, “They were willing to give the children back in a few weeks, if you agree”. They repeated this over and over, and we gave the same answer. No.

CPS knew it wasn’t a fracture, but because this judge was out to “punish parents,” it didn’t matter.

On the day of the trial, I remember listening outside the door of the court. So check this, before the parents are brought in. The lawyers all talk with the judge. I heard the judge say, “What is taking so long?” She said it with a strong, venomous attitude. She was talking about what is taking so long with closing a deal. I heard the lawyer say, “It’s the parents”. My wife heard the judge say, “It wasn’t good enough for them?”. I knew at that point it was a setup.

Mind you, as parents, we are thinking we would have a trial, as it’s our right to due process. When I was able to speak with the lawyer, I was like “oh, is our expert going to speak?” he said no, because his report was accepted. I said, I want him to speak, he said, “See, I’m the lawyer, and I make that decision”. So they thwarted the trial and our due process!

We got into the court, and his defense was so terrible. Umm, ahh, yeah. It would be an “F” in public speaking. I couldn’t believe this was a lawyer. He sabotaged the case. The CPS went and began to lie. So many lies, I lost count. Twisting our words, adding details, making up theories, and more lies. When it all came down to it, it was, you have to punish them, because they haven’t taken responsibility for circumcising their son without being a medical professional. You don’t have to be a medical professional to circumcise your son. No law says this. I will spare the details of the allegations, but the judge slightly altered the allegations and found some to be “true”.

I am so thankful that there is no condemnation in Messiah Yahusha. Though we were persecuted, Yahusha delivered us, and we didn’t agree to their lies.

The good news is she didn’t terminate our parental rights, and we will get them back! HalaluYah! There is no way we can be compared to Job, but this was a Job-like test. I am also thankful that early on in the trial, we were given a word from Elohim that the allegations were “unfounded, unsubstantiated, unsupported”. That word supported us not to fold during the devil’s temptations.

LESSONS

The system is all about malice. The evil intent, from a god-complex to punish parents and create trauma within children.

These courts are falsely witnessing and stealing children from their parents! They are sold off on the adoption market, or they enter foster care, prison, or get sex trafficked. We had no clue that this was happening, if this had not happened to us. Satan is stealing Elohim’s children to create trauma in the children and parents, which, if successful, will affect them for the rest of their lives.

Throughout this trial of life, I struggle with many thoughts. Did I truly hear from Yahuah? Why did you want me to do something that You knew I wouldn’t be able to complete? Where is Yahuah at in all this because they are lying, and the Truth seems insignificant? How can they get away with this?

One thing I can say for sure is that the system needs to be destroyed, and the people in it, punished.

There are so many lessons we learned throughout this process. Here are some of them.

I believe one of the reasons why we were brought into this trial is for our hearts to be circumcised. During our “visits”, where we could only see our children twice a week, for 2 hours, Zakar said something interesting. He said to us during our story time that “Yahusha healed him”. Mind you, our son is only three and is still learning to put words together. Remember what I said earlier, about me giving him to Yahuah. This was the result; he confessed that Yahusha healed him. Not just that, we have seen the work of Yahuah, and his confessions are true.

In other words, Yahuah gave us a gift, favour, and was calling for us to have faith in His Son to circumcise my son, to keep the everlasting covenant in the flesh that He may circumcise Yaharak & Zakar’s heart. In the process of that, Yahuah would circumcise our hearts as well. Circumcision is a painful experience, which, if there is a parallel, would mean that circumcision of the heart is also painful. It certainly is.

As you can imagine, after a while, you start reflecting to see what mistakes you might have made that got you in the position we were in. Here was a valuable lesson. What Satan is accusing us of is not what Yahuah focused on. Satan is a liar and seeks your destruction. Yahuah and His only begotten son love us, and bring about hardships to grow us into the person They want us to be.

As with Job, over the course of time, he began to question Yahuah. Basically, he began to say in his heart, “How could this have happened to me because I’m righteous!” It’s self-justification. It’s one being the judge of their own life. It’s you declaring yourself right and Elohim wrong for bringing the trial upon you. This is what I did. We have no righteousness of ourselves. Even when we try our best, because of sin, we fall short. However, in trusting Yahusha the Messiah, He is our righteousness. As He brings us to trials to strengthen us, to give us what we lack.

When someone falsely accuses you, saying mean and hurtful things, your first reaction is to defend yourself. If not careful, you will think that because you say this or that, you can deliver yourself. Here’s something you must remember: there are some people so evil that nothing you can say will change their minds. It’s some trials so tough that only Yahusha can save you from and help you get through.

It was not a sin to follow Yahusha, and the command He put in my heart to circumcise my son, but sometimes, when you trust Him, it doesn’t mean you will escape persecution. Persecution in which you will not be able to justify yourself against, for them to do what’s right.

Why this test?

There are some lessons that if a father doesn’t teach you, you will learn the hard way. This is the case with me. Through this trial, I’ve learned what it means to trust Yahusha in a situation where you have no power to deliver yourself. Only grace to obey the commands He gives. What it means to guard the family and guard the house.

This trial was for our hearts to be circumcised.

This test exposed the evil of the world, that is, the false swearing and kidnapping. It was for Yahuah to declare them guilty and judge them to their face.

So I’m thankful for this trial, even though it’s been the most painful place in my life. I would say even beyond the abuse of my dad.

THE FINAL WORD

The wicked are in power, and they are judges, lawyers, prosecutors, social workers, and doctors. Against them, only our faith in Yahusha can justify us and defeat them. These people love lies, but we must never agree with an oath of lies, or you will trade your soul. Though the world can judge you, they cannot condemn you. For there is no condemnation in Messiah Yahusha. As parents, we are called to trust Yahusha and guard and value the precious things that were given to us. Like family. It was my biggest lesson as a father, one I was never taught but so grateful to receive.

When it comes to our children, we can’t circumcise their hearts; this is a work of Yahuah. Don’t trust in man, he can’t save you.

This trial has allowed the generational curse to be broken. What the enemy meant for evil, has and will turn for our good. Elohim must circumcise the heart of our children, and our hearts. CPS took our children, but Yahusha is bringing them back.

CALL TO ACTION

We are by no means done fighting against the wicked. May Yahuah judge everyone in the system who has falsely witnessed to take children from their parents. May they be found guilty and be punished to the highest extent of the spiritual law. We need your help, because it’s all our fight.

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